the readers are even more useless

So it is not as if you are being ripped off. It is only if you are willing to be ripped off.
no matter just a small sticker or a so-called blood painting (in fact just a piece of low-quality paper with a bloody painting), i fall for it everytime. spent 5 minutes to complete an issue, just wasted $45 again.

feeling pissed

it sucks as usual
but i sometimes forgot
parasite and paralysis
i cant tell the difference
wish could be sham and lame want to throw up i'm turning to be a toad don't want to be but i will




i, either/or:
problem in soul/
too arrogant/

misanthropic

yeah yeah yeahs

Oh Brett will come to Hong Kong!
Mark the date:

Tues 14th August Convention Centre, Hong Kong

mirror mirror on the wall ...

passed by the park/zoo behind my office, i caught an uncanny reflection -

hey, is that me in the office?


trapped inside, bored to death

don't laugh, you look the same.



So I roar
and I groan
no one hear
and no one hurt

It's cruel to be told to the face

That is what I call "clairvoyant". How does it know?

I was so slow to the whole You Tube things. If it was not my boss who forced me to make an account (to find out if there is any unauthorised use of music, phew), i won't own one, and of course now i have to hide myself from all the colleagues.

sometimes i need hideous tricks on the brain

When I feel myself too miserable or pathetic, but I still cling to this mere existence, I have to find a way, find a way ... (to where)

I expect my whole life will be spent under strong sedation.




Today I found a way, I found Moz. That is so hilarious. No wonder he's my demi-god. Moz with Marr ... yes, another break-up couple we don't want to believe.

Not waving but drowning

this city is so keen to progress
all trace of its past has to be eliminated
or at least for those days under the union jack
deconstruct and rearrange


Borrowed time, borrowed pier - Queen's Pier


Close down. Full stop. End of.

so that is what askew means

They used to be just like me and you
They used to be sweet little boys
But something went horribly askew
Now killing is their only source of joy

a song delicated to the much talk about korean guy in virginia tech and that policeman in hk.

what makes a man to be a killer? they're surely cruel, atrocious and selfish, but none of them are happy. it's evil. for the killers, or the persons/things that made the killers.

i'm thinking of Raskolnikov in Crime and Punishment, Martin in The Damned, Simone in Rocco and His Brothers. yes, too much Luchino Visconti recently, my head is filled up with grotesque scenes and Helmut Berger!!!

deja vu

So, history repeats itself.


of course my passion was much more intense and frenetic for the freedom gig in tap n' tin. almost feel like a salvation. the Second Coming.

this time, i was purely glad.

how come they didn't share the mic anymore? yes, there was eyes contact, whispering and joking but ... but where is the sense of intimacy? their physical proximity was still a bit too far if compare to the so-called good old days

Seven Deadly Sins was so hilarious!

oh it's real (or not?)

shit, how i want to be in london now, it's so easy to go to their gig!

Bulletin of myspace secret show:
MySpace Secret Shows is excited to announce that BABYSHAMBLES will play the next Secret Show as part of London’s Camden Crawl this month! Only the band’s MySpace friends will be able to gain entry to the show.

To be in with a chance of getting on to the list for the gig, ticketholders to the Camden Crawl should sign up to the Secret Shows profile at myspace.com/secretshowsuk, and to the Babyshambles profile at myspace.com/babyshamblesofficial, and put both profiles in their MySpace ‘Top 8’ friends.

Fans then need to show a print out of their MySpace profile to staff at the Camden Crawl ticket exchange when picking up wristbands for the festival. Entry to the gig will be on a first come first served basis.

Details are as follows:

DATE: April 19th

TIME: 3pm

LOCATION: SECRET LOCATION in CAMDEN, LONDON

Make sure you become a friend of /secretshowsuk and check back soon for more info!

He is the colour of the night

He has been condemned to being an obsolete britpop figure. While jarvis and damon remain relevant to the current music scene, all trends-setting authorities have dismissed him as someone who has passed his prime. Ironically a Fallen Idol - a common destiny of the aged prima donna. He does not have any clever or profound things to say, nor does he have any humourous remarks to the daily life or sarcastic observation to declare.... no, all you hear is the words about his own little world - a modern world full of plastic people, a bit lonely, grey, cold and melancholic. He is not whinging. He does not like to whinge. He is just stating the fact of life, nonchalantly, maybe he is just calmly accepting his pain / fate.

Lyrics. Everyone said he lost his magic power. No more gimmick like "he's my insatiable one .. and he wants my inflatable one". Recurring themes and repeating words for all his albums - plastic people, litter in the street, a child within, rain, winter or wind (and of course drug and sex), but anyone reckon that this is exactly his world and he is just telling you the only things in his bleak and unloved world? Numerous reference to sex - symphony of flesh, universe of bliss, not for celebration, it is just something to pass time, an antidote to pain. Ennui? Yes, that is his state of mind (and we all are). Song For My Father - body and words become sand once you go, and one day we all shall go, it's the eternal nothingness or the absolute liberty. Drug? I can see this man is still obsessed by it. It can't be more explicit in Dust and Rain. Talk about recurring theme, is it Pain the subject? "If you're gone I'll carry on but deep inside I'll give my heart to the winter. If you leave I'll take this blade and carve your name into my ugliness." (To The Winter) gosh, I do think it was beautifully written. Lost his magic power? Do people really look into the words?

Music. I think it's grandiose and simple (in a nice sense) at the same time. Colour of the Night and More We Possess The Less We Own Of Ourselves are my two most favourites in the whole album. They both remind me of other favourite songs or music, the former - kate st. john, the latter - the soundtrack of Double Life of Veronique.

Used to be an androgynous glam boy, now the aged diva. Still my dear Brett Anderson.


Brett Anderson - Brett Anderson
(oh the strings was played by The Dirty Pretty Strings, ha!)

My own private library

I should have put it in my own albion but I don't have any impulse to update it anymore. So i put it here, when i still remember, still bother. Well, i may update it to my site one day, who knows, but not now. The site was dedicated to that one and only band. Yes, i'm still fond of its subsequent subdivisions but nothing compare to the east london pub band, and frankly I even do not want them to reunion. Time cannot be turned back to 2002 which i consider as their heyday - bound by intense love, ideas and songs, lived in poverty and poetry, typical bohemian, absolute beautiful. The band shall stay intact in my heart (no matter what the subdivisions become) and my site shall accordingly also stay intact on the net (series of pretext for my own laziness).

The shambolic minstrel (or scoundrel some may say) is extra-ordinarily well-read. There are numerous cultural, geographical or literature references in the song titles, or it's pure coincidence, am i just thinking too much?

A Fool There Was - a film starring the mysterious Theda Bara, story of femme fatale, how a decent moral man got corrupted by a dangerous woman and err... took his road to ruin. The film was actually based on a play by Porter Emerson Browne.

Charming Theda Bara in A Fool There Was

A'Rebours - Against Nature, by J. K. Huysmans

Albion - Blake's painting of Albion

Albion as England - A Little Boy Lost, again, by William Blake, Curse of Minerva by Lord Byron and ... err England Is Mine: Pop Life In Albion from Wilde to Goldie by Michael Bracewell

Arbeit Macht Frei - Work is Freedom

Arcady - Eclogues by Virgil

Back From The Dead - it's a horror film! (well, you know it just by the name)

Boys In The Band - The Boys In the Band, gay film in 1970 (very indicative)


Killamangiro - kill a man for giro, well, everyone knows it, but why did he put the words together? I wonder if it's because of the highest mountain in Africa. Mountain Kilimanjaro, ha!


Lady Don't Fall Backwards - by Joan Le Mesurier. Joan Le Mesurier was the wife of actor John Le Mesurier, best friend of Tony Hancock and ... (very complicated) Joan and Hancock had an affair but John forgave them both ...
...err, actually, it first appeared in here:



a book written by Darcy Sarto? ha!


Love On The Dole - by Walter Greenwood

Lust Of The Libertines - by The Marquis de Sade

Mocking Bird - obviously, To Kill A Mockingbird, by Harper Lee

My Darling Clementine - a Western film starring Henry Fonda

Radio America - probably you'll never hear any The Libertines on this station

Road To Ruin - by Ramones

Sally Brown - no need to be introduced

I like her brother Charlie more cos' he's the natural born loser like me

Tell The King - "Tell the king the sky is falling!" well, two of my most favourite bands made reference to the old english fable

That Bowery Song - The Bowery of NYC (where he met the dealer, brought him to hotel room, being late to the gig and things started to turn sour)

The Boy Looked at Johnny - by Julie Burchill and Tony Parsons

Hey, it's johnny rotten, of course not johnny borrell!

The Ha Ha Wall - the hidden wall to divide places. These walls are invisible from the house to ensure a beautiful garden view. These walls are not funny, ha-ha is just the exclamation of people who discovered those walls.

The Man Who Would Be King - by Rudyard Kipling

Through The Looking Glass - by Lewis Carroll

Vertigo -

a film by Hitchcock, or the record label?

What Katie Did - What Katy Did by Susan Coolidge. The song of course has nothing to do with this children's book. I think the song has made more reference to There She Goes by The La's.

What Became Of The Likely Lads - Whatever Happened To The Likely Lads, that's The Likely Lads series in the 70's, you may still find it in hmv.

*Edit on 27 Mar 2007:
I've just read this week nme, oh, what a coincidence! It talks about reference behind songs, err, of course mine is more complete than that hype champion magazine (smug again^^) But yes, i have to add : The Narcissist - by ancient Greek myth and Picture of Dorian Gray by Wilde

staleness

Should I opt for normality or perversity sobriety or insanity things get difficult when normality and perversity are all within this f__king banality

12 march became so special since i've known you

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday happy birthday
happy birthday to you

i blow out the candles, make the wish
eat the cake on your behalf
this day should be filled with love and friendship
poetry, kisses and hug.

happy birthday, stranger
happy birthday, dear

My Plug-in Baby

3 march 2007 - Muse Live @ Asia-World Expo, Hong Kong

Supermassive Black Hole?
No, it's supermassive karaoke.
From the 1st to the last, even if i couldn't remember the name of the tracks, i could still sing along (and re-create the lyrics instantly), so u know how many hit songs muse have, or it just reminded me how i used to love them (too many lovers, err... i mean too many favourite bands, too little time, i sometimes forgot some of my love)


army of muse, also massive


oh how matt bellamy looks like brett anderson


the dark prince

What is your number?

Mine is 4.

A thursday's child.
The fourth of the four children.
Type 4 of Enneagram.

My sister was so excited about that programme of Enneagram on tvb last Sunday. She revealed that she once had taken a course to analyse herself and she was the Perfectionist Type One. No wonder. Dogmatic, self-righteous, condemnatory and quick to find fault of others, i know she's "the One" even if she didn't tell me.

Generally (or I don't know if it's just me), we are surrounded by :

Type One (aka Reformer/Perfectionist), for their principled, orderly and self-disciplined, they always perform well in their career and they are always your bosses;

Type Three (aka Motivator), pragmatic, adaptable, ambitious, image-conscious, they are always your colleagues who are the bloody attention-seekers but your boss likes them anyway; and

Type Six (aka Loyalist), stable, conformist and defensive, they are always your faceless colleagues;

Type Eight (aka Leader), self-explanatory, this must be your big boss, self-confident, decisive, ruthless, dictatorial;

Type Two (aka Helper), self-explanatory, kind, caring, generous, I think my mother, your mother, everyone's mother is Type Two ... oh mother, you are so manipulative and possessive and stifled me in the name of love.

Other types which I don't always come across:

Type Seven (aka Generalist), what is generalist? all-round person? they are enthusiastic, extroverted, joyous and search for new experience, should be a fun person but sadly, most people I know are those crashing bores Type 1, 3, and 8 or the depressive low life like me.

Type Nine (aka Peacemaker), friendly and accepting, but sometimes passive and repressed. The people I know mostly are aggressive and cantankerous, i can hardly remember any peacemaker in my life.

Meeeself, I read a lot about Enneagram a few years ago for I felt so confused in my career life. Doing numerous tests, no change of result. I am the hopeless Type 4 with the wing of Type 5. I scored zero or even negative in Type 8 and Type 1 (these two Types have the most successful career, so u know how disastrous my career life was/is). Type 4, aka the Romantic. Type 5, aka the Thinker. I won't boast of the attractive traits of these two Types cos' I have none, but I probably have all the weaknesses (how unhealthy). Misfit, outcast, impractical, unproductive, evasive, reclusive, isolated, eccentric, abuse in alcohol and drugs, suicidal.

Enneagram is quite accurate in my two pennies.
Simple test

Wish You Were Here

Dark Side of the Moon, the album which I was forced to listen when I was just three or four years old, for my brother used to scare me by the heartbeat sound and the strange man laughing therein. This was a Japanese Release with the chinese words "狂氣" on the side note of the vinyl. As a kid of course i feel so nervous of the band I thought was called 狂氣. When I grew up, this scary album becomes one of my all time favourite (and i will never return this vinyl to the owner cos' i believe it must be worth a bit now).

Dark Side of the Moon Tour, probably the event once in a lifetime. It doesn't matter if you call it a Pink Floyd live or just Roger Waters. It's the music that matters. But if you have to compare the Pink Floyd led by Gilmour minus Waters and the Pink Floyd with only Waters, (I actually shouldn't make the comparison cos' I only saw the former in the Pulse) I feel the performance of the latter is more poignant and direct. It's stunning to feel/watch the whole set of Dark Side of the Moon, but my favourite moment was Shine On You Crazy Diamond - the emotion was actually too much to bear when you heard the lyrics with the image of Syd Barrett. Of course the set of The Wall was impressively nihilistic. From teenagers to some 50 something middle age group, all shouted that you-know-what anti-establishment slogan. It's almost ecstatic and euphoric. As a human we all love to rebel and destroy.


The pig does fly - 你可以重寫歷史,但不能改變它


"Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way" oh yeah, that's why I think I'm quite English


There is no dark side of the moon really. Matter of fact it's all dark.


The child is grown, The dream is gone.


Roger, an old man now


you painter, you piper, you prisoner


Requiem for syd

My own Proust's experience

Like a lightning in the dark, memories always catch you in a most
unprepared way, skip before you grasp. That is why people honoured memories as Ghosts, it's not you found them, it's they who caught and haunted you.

I walked to the pier humming that tune again, felt so frustrated as I couldn't remember the name. The only thing I know is that I used to love the song. Frustration symptoms lasted for a few days when I walked passed the pier until the ghost revealed itself. The song was called Love Letters. (phew, i don't believe i fall for that sin of banality, so it's definitely not the spell/curse of February 14). Rushed back to home to dig out the soundtrack of Blue Velvet.

A few notes of music bring the overwhelming impression of the past. I was shocked I forgot how pretty Isabella Roasellini and Kyle MacLachlan were, I was shocked I forgot the beauty of the film, violence blend with tenderness (typical David Lynch), I was shocked the film was released in 1986. Maybe I just feel a bit melancholic for the time passed.

In 1986, where were you? what were you doing? I was too young to go to see this category III film in cinema, but I was definitely shaped by abundant abnormal aesthetics.

give me more MAdnEss

sO eNougH meDIA hYpe for KLAXONS. bUT i must say HOw i adore their offical dEbTe album. "*** MyThS*** is SITTing On The BIG chAIr aT NumBEr ///////// O.N.E" it's not R,i,D,i,C,u.l.O,u.s at all. t
urn the volume to the maximum, finding tranquility in the sheer frenzy


klaxons - Myths of the Near Future

Busy without cause

Isn't that we call it 無事忙? My chinese is so bad that I may misunderstand the true meaning.

Busy for family issue, i'm not going to let all to see the wounds here but i do feel tired and sometimes disgusting, i want to disappear in somewhere unknown (but then i will be very irresponsible, u know, blood is fucking thicker than water so and so).

I was thinking about money recently. I am the person who is indifferent to it (am I being pretentious or ignorant to the fact) anyway that's what I think what I am but my stand was being challenged and ...

Yes, I am looking for a new job with better pay. Actually I do not know what is the standard "price" for a lawyer. "Your request is too low, you can request the double of your salary" haha, is it true or what? That's come from one of those big corporation... but i really do not like their attitude of "make your office as your battlefield everyday". used to be lazy and mediocre, I think I should be content with living in poverty while being lazy.

Routine work:
It's not a bad job(?), i think some people may even love my job, if you are a canton-pop lover. Licensee meeting, greetings and awards-giving, the chick of my department kept urging me to take photos of justin and leon koo, phew~ I'd rather shooting the cute birds.


Girl J(2)


Girl J(1)


Girl F


Band Z (let's clap for Vocals Chou for his having a red tonic, actually feel shit about it - no! I believe I'm the first to have it in Hong Kong, i've never wore it, now everyone have it, i know i'm idiotic to think this way)