"You see and hear that they lie," said Ivan Ivanovitch, turning over on
the other side, "and they call you a fool for putting up with their
lying. You endure insult and humiliation, and dare not openly say that
you are on the side of the honest and the free, and you lie and smile
yourself; and all that for the sake of a crust of bread, for the sake of
a warm corner, for the sake of a wretched little worthless rank in the
service. No, one can't go on living like this."
- The Man in a Case, Anton Chekhov
So true, especially in the present time and space. I'm clearly the man in a case, too. (depressing)
I hope I still have the heart for music but it is indeed I didn't go to gigs much recently. Maybe I only saw three acts this year (!!! how desiccated I become!!!) but they were all fabulous.
Slowdive @ KITEC, Hong Kong 28.07.2014
Since neil halstead decided to grow his beard and called himself mojave 3, it's like he waved goodbye to his teenage years. Slowdive became a vague reveries that you may sometimes recall it out of the blue, those dreamlike guitar sound, those long gone shoegazing years. I never thought I could really see their live but yes, miracle happened. It's great that neil put down his acoustic guitar, united with his old pals and relived his teenage years once in a while. What impressed me most was that they were able to turn back the time to the 90's hands down. Rachel was still charming with her angelic murmuring. It was just like heaven to be drowned in their guitar sirens. We were all stunned by the beauty of Golden Hair and chuffed to have the Dagger aimed at our heart again.
Spiritualized @ Rotunda 3, Hong Kong 11.08.2014
At first, I thought I could feel the psyche kicks again but, no no no. We didn't have any psychedelic lighting or visual backdrop, no Electric Mainline, no effect of having substance. Instead we had gospel choir and a very haggard Jason Pierce. Having said that I didn't complain about the lack of any psychedelic element - all is because of the beautiful Always Forgetting With You. I didn't expect to hear the rare track in The Space Project, but thanks to the tender Jason Pierce. This bittersweet love song is always my soft spot. The Libertines @ Alexandra Palace, London 26.09.2014 The Libertines @ Alexandra Palace, London 27.09.2014 The Libertines @ Alexandra Palace, London 28.09.2014
This picture makes me think of the words "dance like nobody's watching" (aka 旁若無人) You know how devastated I was that I could not go to their Hyde Park reunion gig this summer. What? I was given a second chance? This time, the always out-of-luck fangirl did get her prayer answered!!! (and here what the answer was:) Yes, The Libertines announced to have London gigs in September and I had to go there no matter what. After the short libertines film, the three magical nights began (and only the first night got the full version of the film, seems like an opening ceremony, I actually did not like the film playing at the gig, too polished and over-produced, libertines are meant to be raw and impromptu.) We the old ship crews were glad with the songs in the first night, we had songs that thinking back to the chicken shack, with our secrets to keep us warm. And we all grew sentimental in You're my Waterloo, that's the love song of Peter and Carlos, isn't it? I think the boys themselves also got a bit emotional too. The second night was the wildest. Maybe it's Saturday and it was like the usual libertines gigs, I had to grasp for my place and my survival. But maybe love among the band or us towards the band was too great, although the crowd was frenzied, they're also friendly, very paradoxical, right? it's like the libertines, they're pure and perverted, we the fans, violent and amicable. Naughty Peter played a bit Bang Band You're Dead after Fuck Forever and it followed by What Became of the Likely Lads, ... humm..., what an arrangement. The final night, my highlight was The Ballad of Grimaldi sung by Carl. It was also a love song of Peter and Carlos (ok, that's the interpretation of me the abnormal fangirl). it's about how a man kills the thing he loves. they've killed each other before. they're now given the second chance (an answer to fangirls' prayer again?) I hope the story of the libertines will have a happy ending, for these three magical nights did end splendidly. hopefully, the myth of albion goes on...
The Flaming Lips @ Clockenflap 2014, Hong Kong.
Fuck yeah? No. We are feeling fucked.
This year part of my heart already flew to Admiralty so when Mr Wayne told us to have a smile when seeing their performance, I felt a bit guilty and shame. When there were people fighting for our behalf, I was enjoying myself and singing
"Those evil-natured robots
They're programmed to destroy us
She's gotta be strong to fight them
So she's taking lots of vitamins
'Cause she knows that it'd be tragic
If those evil robots win
I know she can beat them"
There are indeed evil government machines out there, we all hide and shelter while look for others as Yoshimi. The stage setting was like a fairyland or in a childish dream, with many psychedelic visions as backdrop. The confetti rain did give me a moment of bliss. The whole event was perfectly ended by Do You Realize and Lucy In the Sky with Diamonds. What can I ask for?
Of course what I memorized most was My Little Airport. Reflective, thought-provoking, french-speaking, kundera and godard quoting and (pretentiously) intellectual, that is the little airport that we love. They are turning political, yes, and we just love them more.
From day one, we knew that it wouldn't be an easy road. We are facing one of the most authoritarian regimes of the world and we know just too well of its (dark) history, of how it mercilessly silenced its dissidents and crushed every quest for freedom and justice. Too many people with stockholm syndrome, too many cops with crime of banality. It's like we are fighting for the impossible. It's time we have to choose if we want to be an intact tile or broken jade, if we want to be a pig in a cage on antibiotics or fight as a human in dignity (and we may lose and ...)
"Oh to fight is to defend if it's not now
then tell me when would be the time that you would stand up and be a man
For to lose I could accept but to surrender
I just wept and regretted this moment,
oh that I, I was the fool
I don't know where the sun beams end and the star lights begins
it's all a mystery
And I don't know how a man decides what right for his own life,
it's all a mystery"