quick note of my thought

Ex-Big Sister treated us small potatos and those no-longer-small-potatos for a dinner. It's always a pleasure to have dinner with the old folks. ex-big sis was as cool as usual, very workaholic and fastidious (still), that's why she's so successful in career, i was never directly under her so i was not as close to her like some of my other ex-colleagues. worse, i was incompetent in her eyes (well this is a fact) cos' i was always so careless and procrastinating. but i think if i was not her colleague, i may be a friend of her cos' i found she was an interesting person and very pleasant (a good boss indeed and it's very rare for a female). other old folks - well, they looked great, achieved much in terms of family life and career, good! me - still under-acheive in all terms, well, fate is decided by character, so i can never change. hmm, i think every child must have dreamt that they would be somebody one day, be a scientist, astronomer, or earn lots of money in whatsoever career ... yes, all i just said was what i thought when i was a child. dream crushed and reality bites. my childhood self must felt so disappointed had she known her future self.

present job is disgusting if not pathetic, women in office always piss me off. been gather together to "discuss" why did i become so fat recently, why did i have so many ances recently, advice and teasing, it's hard to tell.

decision can be quick, just a glimpse, just a click, i need a break.