The rambling otaku

"There is a life and there is a death, and there are beauty and melancholy between."

- Albert Camus

"How can you choose between death and glory?
Happy endings, no, they never bored me.
Happy endings, they still don't bore me,
But they, they have a way
They have a way to make you pay
And to make you toe the line"

- Peter Doherty

... humm, yes, i love sad story, sad characters.  

Why?

Why Isayama Hajime must tear the lovers apart? :'(

For an enthusiastic eruri supporter like me, i feel a sudden disruption to my joy of imagination.

and, if Heichou turns himself to a Kyojin, he will no longer be the strongest "humanity" in the world, no no no, i can't accept this.  but if he doesn't turn himself to be a Kyojin, he seems he can't even survive, no no no!!!!

and, if Heichou really becomes a Kyojin, the manga will then match with the movie version,  hummm.. then heichou will become bad and be defeated by Eren?  NO NO NO!!!

Why Sui Ishida again and again torture the tender Ken Kaneki?  How many metamorphosis will he have to take?  Destroyed and rebuilt, then looks for death as the final solution to all problems, Kaneki runs in circle.

and, Tokyo Ghoul + Tokyo Ghoul re: = manga enunciation of kafka.

Poem of farewell

If this world is evil, we are all part of the evil, but I only want to remember your good.



Finally finished the anime Tokyo Ghoul √A.  Of course the manga is much better than the anime.   The anime was intended to be a recreation of the manga but sadly in a mess-up manner.  However, I do like the last chapter of √A, maybe it finally adopted a very melancholic tone like the manga. The last chapter was also a reconfirmation of the death of Hide (as we the manga readers always wanted to believe that Hide was still alive [though it was very obvious that he was devoured by Kaneki], no we couldn't accept that Kaneki would eat the one who loved him most).  Though the anime deleted the whole grand and bloody battle between Kaneki and Arima, it did show that Kaneki was killed (well now we know he's just got seriously hurt) by Arima by the last bit of "click" sound - the opening of the quinques box.  I like all those subtle details.  But what I like most was Kaneki's long walk with "Unravel" again - back to the square one, is the fight futile?



(why this just made me think of my hometown?)

Forever 君はひとりじゃない

These words are for the people of my hometown who were battered by the evil.  The road is hard, but we soldier on.














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It's always sad to read the final chapter of your beloved manga, though it's a happy ending.

I feel ambivalent if Masashi Kishimoto will continue the story.  I don't want to turn Naruto into another Dragonball Z.  I want Naruto and Gaara just stay 16 forever.







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of course the hentai me feel so chuffed by looking the above picture, they finally look into each other's eyes with affection, Sasuke finally accept your love, Naruto!

May I say that it was just too Shakespearean

I am still intrigued by the whole Tokyo Ghoul and I must say that I like the bleak ending very much, though people tend to think that it was incomplete (and from the commercial point of view, I think the author will definitely continue the story).

From the beginning, it already foretold that it was a tragedy but later when Kaneki grew strong, we all had a false hope that things would be changed, Kaneki would protect the weak, beat the evil and together with Kōtarō Amon, the young official of CCG (Commissioner of Counter Ghoul), human beings and ghouls may someday find a way to mutually exist in the world. But the world was simply wrong (that's the central theme of the story!!).  We conflict with each other for existence, no matter it was between ghoul and human, between ghouls or even just between human.  How we crave for existence and how miserable in such craving ("I must eat, to eat is to plunder, to protect, to lose, to make mistake").

I love the way it presents the story, which does not draw everything out, not depict the plot explicitly.   The work is quiet poetic - the constant counting of numbers (not just to remain awareness of the pain of existence, but also means the counting of the minutes/seconds of your life), the encounter of the good and the bad Kaneki (the realization of the futility of all your hard struggles) and the final vision of the smile of clown.

Oh yes, clowns.  The mocking of clowns.  I don't understand why the readers turned hating Uta at the end.  He may be unscrupulous but the tragedy of Kaneki is to a very large extend due to his own personality.  The extreme Type 2 Enneagram - to validate his own worth by the extreme self-sacrifice, just like what Toka said, it is a passive manipulation to others.  The unsympathetic words of Uta remind me of Macbeth's famous words:
"And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death.

Out, out, brief candle!

Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage

And then is heard no more. It is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing."

Uta the unscrupulous/cool prankster (was he?Actually Kaneki would do what he did no matter what)

Love will indeed tear us apart, to eat your best friend.

To love is to put yourself into a vulnerable position, the collapse of Tsukiyama.

Counting of the final moment, delirious yet sober.

The mocking clown.

Monster by Urasawa Naoki

OK, I was so late to get in touch with this comics.  And now I love it so much.  I think the following pictures may sum the story up.

 Some random thoughts (and the spoiler):


Fear can bring out the worst of us.  Everyone of us live a monster in ourselves, it's just if our monster will be awaken one day.   But we are free to choose if we let the monster sleep or wake it up.

Does anyone notice that Johan likes to raise his hand like the "monster" who took his sister (though he thought it was him) away?  Victim can become a perpetrator by imitation!

In order to deny the world, we either kill others or kill ourselves.

For me, the most heartbreaking moment is the last chapter (The Real Monster) which explains why Johan develops into a monster. Despair and loneliness of the abandoned.

The empty bed, Johan is dead? He was going to find his mother? He escaped again to do more evil deeds?  It's up to your interpretation.  Of course I personally want to believe that he walked out to find his mother, but we don't know.  Maybe it's like the Life of Pi, you choose the ending.  After all, it's the life that we make the choice.