344th of January (google told me)

I just found out that today my Google homepage looks like this :



isn't it  sweet? For an old and lonely person like me, this is really a sweet surprise, but this so-called comfort of stranger is actually not even from a stranger, it's not from a person, just your own personal data got handled by a big corporation / system, or I should better think about how they obtain my information, and how they will manage it.  I sound so boring, ruined the little heart-felt tenderness offered to me, I admit I got haunted by my work that my brain is full of rules and regulations and no verse and prose allowed.

Today I actually intended to take some pictures during my busy lunch hour, to produce some memories for today, but all I found in my usual wandering path - bleak, withered, grotesque images, not that great for today memories, (or such realism that I don't need, I got too much).

"last year is dead, they seem to say
begin afresh, afresh, afresh."

they look like me, strange, just hang on to yourself.

sentiment of one second

I was reading the news of Liu Xia while listening to Isaac Gracie's Running on Empty. Strange Juxtaposition. Almost cried in the train.



"This is not how we were meant to be,
I’m running on empty."

周末看書

像是後殖民誌的後記，看後若有所失，若有所得。羔羊。自由。沉靜。

my ears of 2017

2017 was an unhappy year for me.  Still I found my support through music, though it does not offer much help, better than nothing.  I still make the conclusion of my annual albums chart for my own record, fear of dementia.

1. The Horrors - V  / TOY - Clear Shot

Clear Shot was a year 2016 album but I only got it at the beginning of 2017 and I got V at the end of 2017, yes, I'm perfectly out of time.  

2.  Ulrika Spacek - Modern English Decorations

3. 神聖かまってちゃん - 夕暮れの鳥

4. Depeche Mode - Where's the Revolution

5. Lost Horizons - Ojala

6. Arcade Fire - Everything Now

7. Alvvays - Antisocialites

8. Slowdive - Slowdive

9. 欅坂46 - 真っ白なものは汚したくなる

I still have no time to order or download Morrissey and the Pains of Pure at Heart though I think i will like their albums no matter what, maybe they will enter my chart of year 2018.  I like Graham Coxon's Falling and several songs of Willie J Healey, need time to explore.  Cover of Declan McKenna's album is awful (not awesome), though his songs are catchy, ...humm.. better not to touch it.  Peter Perret's Troika is really nice, will dig it more.

My goodbye lives in me

Thank you for being my companion for so many years.  I know I will see traces of you wherever I go for the years to come.  You parted me but actually you will never be parted, 'cos you are part of me and, at the same time, part of me is parted.